Last year when I was learning about global warming, my teacher used the term "positive feedback loop." He was explaining how global warming has certain effects which increase global warming more.
Basically, a positive feedback loop is when one thing increases something else which then increases the first thing. And on and on. So everything just gets bigger and bigger.
After that lesson about global warming, I started thinking about positive feedback loops. It's an interesting concept, and one that we can see in our everyday lives. It may seem surprising but it's true.
The reason why I'm writing this now is that I feel like I'm in the middle of one of these loops right now. Here's how it is.
1. I want to have someone to talk to.
2. I decide to try and interact with people.
3. It ends up not working for some reason (example: I just can't bring myself to interact with anyone)
4. I get upset so...
5. I want to have someone to talk to.
See how it goes? The feeling of wanting someone I can talk to just gets more and more intense. And there are people I can talk to. But there's no one I can talk to about not having anyone to talk to. It's confusing. My life is a confusing mess. But I still love it.
For example, today I went back to school and it was great just to be there again. Just to see everyone. I don't even know any of these people very well, but I just really like the environment of my group. Hearing people talking and fooling around and laughing. It's just great. I love when other people are so happy. But it's kind of bittersweet, because there's always a part of me that wishes I were a part of that.
But I'm not. That's why I try to be. The thing is, I have no idea what to do next. So the positive feedback loop keeps on going.
2.27.2012
2.23.2012
Issues
The world has issues.
It's true. There are so many problems that people don't know which one to focus on. At least I don't.
But I've decided. Not on one specific issue, but i've decided to try and inform people about those issues nobody else sees as important. Maybe they aren't important for others. But they are for me.
Issues like loneliness in schools, like people not seeing the little things that can make us happy, like how every single issue in this world is important.
Many people want everyone else to care about the same things they care about. Sometimes, a lot of people do care, and they form a charity, or something like that.
The thing is, there will always be people who don't care about the same issues you do. But it's not necessarily because they disagree with your ideas. It's because they have another issue they care about more.
I remember one time when me and a friend of mine were having a sale to stop puppy mills, someone came up to us and told us we should be raising money to help people in Haiti (because this was right after the earthquake). That person cared most about the earthquake in Haiti and would rather donate money to that cause than to stopping puppy mills.
People may be upset about this, that not everyone cares about the issues they do. I know I have. But now I realize this: it's really not necessary to have the whole world care about the cause that you do. As long as you inform people about your cause, and they listen, you're getting something done. They don't have to care, but if they know you care, they might help you.
Everyone can't care about one issue, but everyone can be informed about it.
It's true. There are so many problems that people don't know which one to focus on. At least I don't.
But I've decided. Not on one specific issue, but i've decided to try and inform people about those issues nobody else sees as important. Maybe they aren't important for others. But they are for me.
Issues like loneliness in schools, like people not seeing the little things that can make us happy, like how every single issue in this world is important.
Many people want everyone else to care about the same things they care about. Sometimes, a lot of people do care, and they form a charity, or something like that.
The thing is, there will always be people who don't care about the same issues you do. But it's not necessarily because they disagree with your ideas. It's because they have another issue they care about more.
I remember one time when me and a friend of mine were having a sale to stop puppy mills, someone came up to us and told us we should be raising money to help people in Haiti (because this was right after the earthquake). That person cared most about the earthquake in Haiti and would rather donate money to that cause than to stopping puppy mills.
People may be upset about this, that not everyone cares about the issues they do. I know I have. But now I realize this: it's really not necessary to have the whole world care about the cause that you do. As long as you inform people about your cause, and they listen, you're getting something done. They don't have to care, but if they know you care, they might help you.
Everyone can't care about one issue, but everyone can be informed about it.
2.16.2012
Google Docs
Yeah, it's a strange thing to write a post about. But Google Docs is what I do a lot of my schoolwork on, and it's pretty cool, so why not?
One of the interesting things about Google Docs is that when there's a public document, there's a list of everyone who's viewing it. But it doesn't actually say who they are it just says :
Anonymous User 3
Anonymous User 30
Anonymous User 4
It just shows everyone viewing the document as anonymous users. Sometimes when I'm looking at a science homework document I wonder who those other people are. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to start typing and have a conversation over the computer with a random person from my grade.
I wonder if any of those other people represented by those little colored squares think about these same things. I doubt it. But who knows? Nothing is certain. Maybe one of the eight people who's looking at the science homework now is looking at the square that represents me and wondering who I am.
WAIT! Make that nine! Someone just opened the document. I have the Google Docs window open in the background right now. OOH! I know what I'm going to do! I'm going to link to this post so those nine people see it. I wonder if anyone will click on it.
So if you got here from the Google Doc, please comment on this. I want to see if my little experiment works!
One of the interesting things about Google Docs is that when there's a public document, there's a list of everyone who's viewing it. But it doesn't actually say who they are it just says :
Anonymous User 3
Anonymous User 30
Anonymous User 4
It just shows everyone viewing the document as anonymous users. Sometimes when I'm looking at a science homework document I wonder who those other people are. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to start typing and have a conversation over the computer with a random person from my grade.
I wonder if any of those other people represented by those little colored squares think about these same things. I doubt it. But who knows? Nothing is certain. Maybe one of the eight people who's looking at the science homework now is looking at the square that represents me and wondering who I am.
WAIT! Make that nine! Someone just opened the document. I have the Google Docs window open in the background right now. OOH! I know what I'm going to do! I'm going to link to this post so those nine people see it. I wonder if anyone will click on it.
So if you got here from the Google Doc, please comment on this. I want to see if my little experiment works!
2.11.2012
Grammys (and Grampys)
Tomorrow people will win awards. For music. For some reason this is called the Grammys. Who came up with that name, and what is it supposed to mean? Did someone's grandma win these awards first? And they called them the Grammys in honor of her???? Probably not.
Music is good for the world, and the people who make it deserve to be rewarded. Life just wouldn't be the same without music.
Some people might not care about music, but for me music is important in many different ways. Some songs make me feel a certain way, some bring back memories, some have really good lyrics, and some are just fun.
And some songs are all of the above. So I hope those kind of songs get Grandma Awards! Err... um... I mean Grammys.
Music is good for the world, and the people who make it deserve to be rewarded. Life just wouldn't be the same without music.
Some people might not care about music, but for me music is important in many different ways. Some songs make me feel a certain way, some bring back memories, some have really good lyrics, and some are just fun.
And some songs are all of the above. So I hope those kind of songs get Grandma Awards! Err... um... I mean Grammys.
2.07.2012
Screenwriting. Is. AMAZING!
Wow. Haven't posted in a while. But as I mentioned in my last post, I am now in screenwriting class! And it is fun already!
The first day (yesterday) we played the chair game, in which we have to get up from our chair when we agree with the statement being read. It sounds boring, but it's actually pretty fun, and you get to see how many people agree with you on things. After that, we watched a creepy short film called Tell Tale which freaked out the entire screenwriting group (myself included). What a nice way to end the day!
Today was the second day, and things were a bit different. We didn't watch a short film, but we read a short screenplay and practiced giving polite, but constructive criticism. The reason we did this is because some students are going to share their screenplays with the whole class.
My teacher had asked yesterday who wanted to do this and I had raised my hand along with a bunch of other people. And today she was saying that we wouldn't be able to read everyone's screenplays so raise your hand if you really really want to do this. I still raised my hand, along with a bunch of people.
I didn't want to prevent anyone else from sharing, so I normally wouldn't do something like that. But screenwriting is very important to me. And at the end of the last cycle of screenwriting, only two people that I know of read my screenplay and I really want more people to know about it.
Sometimes I think that people just don't care. I really thought more than two people would read my screenplay. But that didn't happen. I almost feel bad for wanting to share my piece with the whole class when they would probably care more about some other screenplay. But I really want to do this. So I will, for once. I hope things work out, but no matter what, I'm in SCREENWRITING!!! Which means things really can't be that bad.
The first day (yesterday) we played the chair game, in which we have to get up from our chair when we agree with the statement being read. It sounds boring, but it's actually pretty fun, and you get to see how many people agree with you on things. After that, we watched a creepy short film called Tell Tale which freaked out the entire screenwriting group (myself included). What a nice way to end the day!
Today was the second day, and things were a bit different. We didn't watch a short film, but we read a short screenplay and practiced giving polite, but constructive criticism. The reason we did this is because some students are going to share their screenplays with the whole class.
My teacher had asked yesterday who wanted to do this and I had raised my hand along with a bunch of other people. And today she was saying that we wouldn't be able to read everyone's screenplays so raise your hand if you really really want to do this. I still raised my hand, along with a bunch of people.
I didn't want to prevent anyone else from sharing, so I normally wouldn't do something like that. But screenwriting is very important to me. And at the end of the last cycle of screenwriting, only two people that I know of read my screenplay and I really want more people to know about it.
Sometimes I think that people just don't care. I really thought more than two people would read my screenplay. But that didn't happen. I almost feel bad for wanting to share my piece with the whole class when they would probably care more about some other screenplay. But I really want to do this. So I will, for once. I hope things work out, but no matter what, I'm in SCREENWRITING!!! Which means things really can't be that bad.
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