Plan-tastic!

I like having plans. It makes me feel like everything is clear. If I do this and then do this, then this will happen.

But really, plans seem to mean nothing. There are so many variables in the world that you can never be sure of the outcome of anything. So what's the point of planning? For example (and if you've been reading this blog you knew I was going to say this) if I plan a discussion group and no one shows up, what's the point of planning to begin with? To try and make order out of a chaotic world? But it didn't make order. It just made me upset.

Still, a lot of times when I go into school, I like to have a plan. Just to use as a starting point. For example: "I will talk to five different people today" or "I will perform my monologue in drama class today" or something like that. Even though half the time I don't do these things. It's a goal. Something to at least try.

Last year I sometimes had days where I would just look around and see how great everyone was, and write down some fun quotes from people in my little notebook that I always carry around. I called these days EODs - Epic Observation Days. Because I like abbreviations. On these days, I wouldn't even try to do any big things. I would just look around and be happy.

On one of these EODs we had to choose groups. One thing about me: I don't like choosing groups. Because you have to figure out who you want to be with, and then ask them, and then hope they say yes. But on this day, things worked out okay because I was looking around, and I talked to someone who was nice to me, and I ended up in her group. I was glad because I had actually gotten myself into a group for once. The funny thing was, I didn't even really plan what I would do! My only plan for the day was to do some Epic Observation.

That's the funny thing about plans. Sometimes they succeed. Sometimes they fail. And sometimes, when planning one thing, you will succeed in something completely different. So I don't think that plans are always worthless. They can be plan-tastic! (see title of this post).

But on Tuesday, I'm going to go into school absolutely planless. And just see where life takes me.